Renew

 

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately, and honestly, I feel like I really need a change in my routine and my life in general. I get so tired of the same old stuff every day, and it’s starting to wear me down. It’s not good for me—I find myself feeling low and even a bit depressed, which isn’t great because I tend to shut myself off from the world when that happens.

I’ve tried taking breaks from everything, but nothing seems to help. It feels like I’m losing my creative spark, and being stuck in one place is really tough for me. I’ve been considering a bunch of options—maybe studying, working abroad, or just living alone for a while. Sometimes it feels like living in this country is a lost cause because nothing ever changes.

Then, out of nowhere, a new

Kohl, the 6th

 kitten showed up, running from some aggressive stray dogs. My siblings and I couldn’t just ignore it, so we took in this little furball, making it our sixth cat—another black one, too. It felt like a sign, like the universe was saying, “You can’t leave just yet; you’ve got more to do.” I mean, how could I turn my back on a living being that needs help?

That moment hit me hard. My struggles seem so small compared to what these animals go through just to survive. It made me rethink my complaints. Still, I really want change. I want to feel alive again and find a reason to stick around. I wish I could see some hope in this country that often feels hopeless, run by corrupt officials and people who take advantage of others.

But I know I need to keep pushing forward.