Speaking of science, I once watched a documentary about a child with a terminal illness. Her father, a scientist, decided to preserve her head in a cryogenic tank after she passed away, hoping that one day it could be attached to a different body, preserving her memories and brain. I think "crazy" is an understatement because if the human body can reject internal organs like a heart or kidneys, what would happen with a human head, which contains a complex brain and countless nerves? The mere thought of it makes me think of zombies.
Moving on, last month, I visited my doctor and requested a prescription because my hormones make me feel very down and even borderline depressed when I'm exhausted. He gave me a medication that, upon research, turned out to be a form of Prozac. I was a bit scared at first since it’s an antidepressant. Anyway, I tried it for a month, and I was surprised at how emotionally numbing it was. It was supposed to help me sleep, but it didn’t really address my insomnia; however, it had a significant impact on my emotions.
As I mentioned, it was emotionally numbing—you feel happy on the surface but become somewhat cold. If I had to describe it, it’s like losing track of time and becoming mechanical, as if you’re standing in the middle of the road while everything and everyone around you is in time-lapse mode, and you’re the only one who isn’t. It did help me focus, but I started losing touch with people. I could go an entire day without talking to anyone, and it would feel like just a few hours passed. I’m not sure if it’s a good or bad thing, but I kind of enjoyed being emotionally numb at times. It seemed to elevate my “happy hormones,” and at the same time, the world around me kept moving, with no sense of time or space.
Then I had this realization: science is so powerful that it can already control human emotions. There’s a pill for almost anything, but the benefits they bring can be temporary. That realization can be pretty daunting.
