Octo31st

Happy Halloween!

To be honest, I couldn't care less about Halloween except for the TV specials they air about ghost and paranormal stuff during this time of the year. I only take the 1st (All Saints Day) and 2nd (All Soul's Day) of November seriously as it is widely observed here in my country.

Moving on, I went to the Grotto this morning during my morning jog. I offered prayers and lit candles for our dearly departed ones. 

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A much needed break

"..bonding time with my sissies by eating out at this place
I haven't been or keep on coming back to,
may it be an eccentric resto or fancy one.."

I wanna enjoy my day off from work for as much as possible by either writing a blog whilst listening to acoustic tracks through my Spotify playlist, bonding time with my sissies by eating out at this place I haven't been or keep on coming back to, may it be an eccentric resto or fancy one, go back to that last page of the eBook I left off, watch a favorite movie I've seen over and over again. I just wanna be on a stress free environment and situation, I want my happy hormones up, veer away from dramas.

Oh My Gulay Resto/Art Gallery
 - photo from my instagram account

I am very fickle minded and once faced with stressful situations I sometimes break no matter how strong I am like a song that goes 'even the best falls down sometimes..' called “Collide” by Howie Day. I usually resort to leaving my current job for years to have a change of environment no matter how difficult it is to start over. I snap by telling myself 'I'm done.'

I have been thinking lately of leaving my work and go back down south due to life's simplicity here up north. I am just so used to a fast paced life the rush and all and I find life here so sluggish and moves in such a slow motion. I am driven by money and I wouldn't lie about it and a high paying job that'll pay off the bills.

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Once at work whilst browsing through travel blogs, I came across this bloggie by John Ward, he's a Irish blogger who traveled across 122 or so countries and self confessed he's not even wealthy nor have benefactors to sustain his life the way it is. I envied him at some point because travel is my ultimate dream but how can I? I am busy with my job which is just enough to pay my bills and so little time due to job demands that prohibit me from pursuing my dream. He said that how can you enjoy your retirement money if you're even too old to travel cuz that's the only time YOU'll have time to enjoy-- once you're retired. I thought about it and I agree big time. Why is life like this anyway? If you have money you don't have time and if you have time you don't have money? I just want to have a balance of both but I just don't know how's that possible.

Anyways, moving on, I wan't my life to change hopefully by next year. I just came into this point that things must change and I am the driver, I must steer my own way to change my destiny 'cuz it's obviously not working out for me at this point.

'Nuff of my rants for now.

I wanna keep myself busy for as much as possible and I mean productive-busy. I have been feeling a little better since I started taking my thyroid medication again (on a lower dose) but this time before bedtime although It hasn't completely eradicate the fact that It still makes me sleepy come daytime whilst at work. I guess I just have to endure it than be acutely hypothyroid. My muscle cramps eluded me for days which I don't know for how long.

photo from my instagram account 

To keep me busy I got myself these cord protectors which I bought from this general merchandise store for Php10 a piece and yeah it's kind of enjoyable for as long as your patience has not ran out. I spent some gruelling less than an hour wrapping it around my ipod and mobile phone charger. Whoa It wasn't as easy as it looks once done man but the work pays off once you see how cool it looks afterwards teehee.

One of my other plans is to go back to driving again because it is a necessity and I hate it that I have to rely on my sister all the time. I wanna feel much more indie by driving back again for myself since I stopped doing so when I was still 16 because I hate driving manual cars. I think automatic cars is sure easier compared to driving manual ones which you have to endure muscle pains afterwards because you have to steer the wheel for as much effort as you could.

Well, well.. I need TIME like I said which I do not have lately. A badly needed time to do a lot of travelling and other things for myself.

Same As It Was

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My body is sore as a side effect of abruptly stop taking my thyroid meds on my own accord. I was just done and over with it at one point because seeing my endocrinologist is so much more difficult than dealing with my muscle cramps. Yes, I know I am now back to being Hypothyroid as a by product of my RAI or thyroid ablation. And yup this will be for life that I have to take medications to balance my hormones. I felt suddenly aghast by it but either way I have no choice because If I won't my heart would be badly damaged due to Hyperthyroidism.

I was on Levothyroxine 50mcg after my Laparoscopic Cholesystectomy for almost a month until I saw my endoc and he increased my dosage to 100mcg and that's when all the problem started kicking in. I started having headaches, feeling disoriented, terribly sleepy, started getting depressed, lost my focus and what have you. So, I stopped taking it after roughly nine days and I felt better seriously until recently that I started gaining weight again, feeling so cold, my muscle cramps came back, same as it was during my hypothyroid days and yeah right it is really tough.

My endoc for over a year now is on one month leave so I needed to find another endoc (which is very rare where I live) to immediately address my muscle cramps/tightness or whatever you call it and I was lucky to find one, an endocrinologist and internist at the same time. I took this blood test covered by my HMO for TSH-FT4 just so my new endoc would have a basis to begin with. It's like I was back to square one, I told him about my operation and RAI and I was transparent about how I felt whilst on Levothyroxine 100mcg and he agreed to reduce it back to 50mcg and advised that whatever makes me feel good would help like take Levo in the evening perhaps to address the puffiness of my face and muscle cramps etc.

I think being an internist helped somehow that he suggested I run some cholesterol check, CBC, Urinalysis to see if all is well and isolate as to why my pulse rate is fast for a hypothyroid patient. He also mentioned that I MAY have a clogged vein connected to my heart after he performed an ECG test on me. I appreciate his honesty seriously and not some bunch of sugar coated words just so as not to scare me off. I mean, I am an adult who deserve to hear what must be heard to fully get me into better shape for real. My new endoc/internist advised my gallstone 'might' go back as a result of weight loss again due to TSH (thyroid stimulating hormone) medication.

I do not regret having underwent RAI but I just wish that I find my hormonal balance someday because I feel so sick feeling like being in a pendulum every time. Damn, what can I say? I freakin' need a break from doctors and hospitals man! I am just fervently hoping and praying that my thyroid goes back to normal because this illness hits me hard in the muscles since during my Hyperthyroid days and I ain't happy with it.

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A little help for a paw family

The last leg of my doggy chores with Yumi ended today with a whopping two thousand bill for tartar removal. I know there's a hole in my pocket but happiness in my heart.

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My sissies and I had to fast her yesterday until today so her last meal was lunchtime and her last liquid consumption was last night at 7pm and that's it no more foodie nor water for her until we took her to the vet this morning.

We drove her to the vet around 10 a.m and she's so weak already due to dehydration and hunger I know so she was behave the whole trip.

It took roughly a couple of hours and we were a bit worried when the vet said since Yumi hasn't had any operation we don't know if she is allergic to sedative or not unlike humans wherein a patch test is required to see if there'll be any allergic reaction.

We were apprehensive to leave her at first but we trust the vet as they are experts and of course they won't allow anything bad to happen to their paw patients. I signed all the waiver and stuff and we left her to the hands of the vet hoping all goes well and thank God it did.

I got a phone call from the vet after lunch to let us know we can pick Yumi up since she's already awake, safe and sound. I was advised that she's only allowed to eat and drink by 10 p.m tonight. How heartbreaking because she's soooo starving but whatever the vet says we have to comply because we have to wait for the anaesthesia's effect to wear off first.

Well, what can I say, I was happy when I saw the outcome. Yumi now has pearly white teeth and better breathe of course although still a li'l groggy.

My next project is our senior dog Fiona and her toenail. I have, i have to save up again!

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