one of those weekends...

its a payday weekend but i chose to stay home and run errands instead of a trip to my parents house. i just let my sister go home herself just to drop by since our mom is in town. i just feel like it's such a hassle to go there, i so hate walking far and the trip back here in Shaw is so much of a hassle as well. everything there isn't accessible unless our brother would be kind enough to drive us off to the mall or something.

my pay sort of paid off my credit card and time and again i promised myself not to use it as soon as i paid it off. i know, the purpose of having a card is to make your spending more manageable but then being the responsible person that i am i hate it when the interest grows on top of what i need to only pay! i don't want credit card companies to earn money from me that's why i manage my spending and payments wisely. so...i'm stuck here home just content with surfing the net and am all glued to the tv watching shows on cable since this morning. well, i left this morning and had some groceries. i decided to cook pasta instead so that we'll have readily available food on the fridge for the week. i'm proud to say i cooked the pasta well, it wasn't soggy hehe. anyways, spiral pasta doesn't have the tendency to become soggy unlike penne or the noodle-like one.

my jaw still hurts and i just shrug it off. nothing will hinder me from eating my fave pasta! not even an aching jaw :) maybe i'll have a trip to the dentist this future weeks. arrghh..i hate going to the dentist nor a doctor. i hate the wait time, it's killing me.

i'm still pushing through with my oatmeal breakfast diet although part of me refuses to do so. i just convince myself...it's good for my body. hay...i should be out somewhere today but the more i get out of the house the more i'm forced to spend and i hate that. i don't wanna work to pay off my credit card although never was that i maxed it out so far :s

damn, i can't find any nice stuff to watch on cable today! the telly has been switched on since this morning except when i went out earlier. bored like hell, good thing my sisters still keep me company via sms.

Temporomandibular Joint Dysfunction (Jaw Pain) huwaaat??? - in short MY JAW HURTS!

my jaw hurts..and it's been weeks now. it sort of worries me quite a bit lately since i don't know if it has something to do with one of my teeth or whatever. i read few stuff online and some of which scared me because it mentioned that jaw pain could be a form of heart attack for women. whew.

i realized just yesterday i had quite severe chest pain after i got out of the bus until i got to the elevator. i had slight dizziness and i was a bit nauseas as well so as soon as i reached the office i hurriedly calmed myself down with a dose of cold water. hah! that was really scary. imagine if i fainted no one will catch me. geesh. i thought, possibly it's because my clothing was quite suffocating and tight that's why i had difficulty breathing but after i read this article online i had second thoughts. damn.

but then after further reading, i found out that it may be due to a wisdom tooth. but then, hey am too old to grow one duh? so i found another useful article that may explain why my jaw hurts...

Temporomandibular Joint Dysfunction (Jaw Pain)

What is the Temporomandibular Joint?

Temporomandibular Disorder (TMD) may occur when the jaw twists during opening, closing or side-motion movements. These movements affect the jaw joint and the muscles that control chewing.

What is Temporomandibular Disorder?

TMD describes a variety of conditions that affect jaw muscles, temporomandibular joints, and nerves. TMD can be associated with chronic facial pain. Symptoms may occur on one or both sides of the face, head or jaw, or develop after an injury. TMD affects more than twice as many women than men and is the most common non-dental related chronic orofacial pain.

What causes TMD?

Normal function for this muscle group includes chewing, swallowing, yawning and talking. Certain tasks, either mental or physical, cause or aggravate TMD, such as strenuous physical tasks or stressful situations. Most discomfort is caused from overuse of the muscles, specifically clenching or grinding teeth (bruxism).

These excessive habits tire the jaw muscles and lead to discomfort, such as headaches or neck pain. Additionally, abnormal function can lead to worn or sensitive teeth, traumatized soft tissues, muscle soreness, jaw discomfort when eating, and temporal (side) headaches.

What TMD symptoms can I experience?

• The muscles which control the jaw can refer pain to the head, face and upper neck.
• Headaches can be caused by TMD, especially in and around the ear, eye, sides and front of head.
• An earache without an infection.
• Jaw pain or soreness more prevalent in the morning or late afternoon.
• Jaw pain when you chew, bite or yawn.
• Clicking when opening and closing your mouth.
• Difficulty opening and closing your mouth.
• Locked or stiff jaw when you talk, yawn or eat.
• Sensitive teeth when no dental problems can be found.

well enough :) but then i still have this feeling it's teeth related. it won't hurt to research at least i realized my neck pain has something to do with it hehehe...

routine.

4:50am - wake up in th morning and get ready for work (as of this week my work starts at 7am and ends at 4pm which is ever evolving each week!)

6:00am - all prepped up for work, oatmeal for breakfast and iced tea, 'll switch off the a/c, plug in my ipod and head off for an early morning jeepney ride.

6:15am - it varies, but i should be in edsa waiting for a buz bound to lrt ayala-leveriza by this time so i would be on time for work

6:20am - onwards (but not later than 6:45) chillin' in the bus whilst listening to my ipod which i bet contains roughly 400+ songs, the traffic hasn't snarled yet :|

qtr to 7am - rcbc entrance, the police dogs lights up my day (sometimes it's a german shepherd at times it's either a black or peach labrador, rarely a rotweiller) :D

11am - lunchbreak, spend my lunch break in the office pantry then brush my teeth then go back to work and get stumped again with admin stuff. today's work load is not that heavy...

4pm - on the dot. i logged out and headed off to team meeting...

qtr to 5pm - walked my way to MJ bldg in valero st. to pick up my referral thingy (my workmates say it's a sodexho pass heheeh)

5:30pm or whatever - walkathon to the nearest bus stop. the weather is annoying. i SO HATE SUMMER!

6:30 pm or so - am home alas! i bought 1 box of donuts since my elder sister is home.

around 7pm - cooked my dinner, a combination of chopped celery, onions, tomatoes, carrots, peas and corn kernels mixed with egg and a piece of donut! heaven.

7:17 - am busy writing this blog and will be off to bed early.

slumdog millionaire

i just watched 'slumdog millionaire' today and it was intense. it was about a boy named Jamal who was out looking for her childhood love and despite having no education, successfully won 'who wants to be a millionaire?' amidst cheating accusations. jamal's response to all questions were derived from all his struggles as a child, from the death of his mother down to his life being a 'slumdog.' 

up and away...

i just got back home after visiting my parents and i went straight there after my shift last thursday past 4:00 PM because i was so stumped with work. anyways, i had a good rest day. my sister and i already vacated our room in our family home where we lived for twenty years. we're really moving out for good. My elder sister cooked for me, had ice cream and chips. I so love relaxing and not think about work even just for a while. I got acquainted with a new puppy, we called him Panda because the furry creature has a black spot in his left eye and he still breastfeeds. i was a couch potato the whole time i was there since i missed our couch and our big TV. good thing cable tv is already available in the area since it was just hooked up last weekend after my twin sis requested to transfer her cable service in 3 years to our parents. 

love isss love...

this past week was not as heavy compared to the previous ones. work was not 'that' toxic thank goodness. hey, i have not visited this blog for quite sometime. work kept me preoccupied.

i hate very early morning schedule because it's such a pain in the ass to wake up whilst the rest of the world is snoring.  i am too lazy to leave the bed before the sun even rises. i have been devouring nothing but oatmeal for breakfast for about a week now and i've been feeling the huge difference. one of my old pair of jeans is getting less and less tight lol. that's just a clear indication i may have lost weight. however, my problem now is my jaw, it hurts.

it's valentine's day and as usual it's such a big deal for so many people that they even forgot it was friday the 13th yesterday lol. 

nothing like the sundays...

"The Sundays Life Goes On lyrics"

Build me up don’t get me down
Weather the storm
Well, life goes on
Feelings ebb and flow by hour
You’re up in the clouds
and than you sink like a stone

So do you feel yourself with pills
to deaden your ills
Or are you only one love short
of happiness
And in a picture on the wall
No glimmer of yourself at all
You’ve left yourself
Far away

Build me up, don’t mop my brow
Weather the storm? No
Because life goes on
Missed my only hope right now
To soar like a bird
And not to sink like a stone

So do you feel yourself with pills
oh, to deaden your ills
Or are you only one love short
of happiness
And in a picture on the wall
No glimmer of yourself at all
You’ve left yourself
Far away

So do you feel yourself with pills
To cure you of your ills
Or are you only one love short
Of the happy days to come
And in a picture on the wall
can’t see the face at all
So untie yourself
Because that’s all you’ve got to do
And I can grow a pair of wings
And I can take up flying
There’ll be no crying
Up in the air
Looking back down

And let me tell you, if I talk about gloom
I don’t get out of feeling down
It strips you of yourself
And it splits you from the self
That you know

MOVE-ing on....

after a lot of thinking, i finally said yes and agreed to give up our small space in our 20 year old house which rooms have long turned into bed space units. i was adamant really but my sister convinced me and after a lot of arguments i decided to give it up for my mom's sake. she needs to make money out of it and i realized it's the only way we could share some time with our parents. my mom was very glad i finally agreed so i went home and helped her out vacating our space so we could move our stuff to  our other house in the village. my only concern, our house there  does not have quick access to pretty much everything. 

i have seen our house cat 'moonie' and adopted dog 'kulet' which i haven't seen in ages. animals are good stress reliever. moonie is a bit talkative but my mom said he's not lazy. well, that's a surprise since most male cats are lazy. i was so busy this morning packing our stuff. i don't know how on earth it'll fit the small truck my mom rented. how short is the weekend.